it's been a little while since I've blogged, so I decided it was time for an update. Not that anyone necessarily reads these, but it helps me if no one else.
I was reading back on my previous blogs and in comparison I've made some drastic strides to becoming more controlling of my addiction. My biggest problem was idle time. Well, idle time-- I have no more! I'm working full time, going to school online 3/4 time, and working out at the gym every day! I first started about 3 weeks ago with doing an intense aerobic exercise about 4 days a week with my friend Melissa. This was good for both of us because we kept each other motivated. Well, I decided I needed more! I knew the local YMCA was too expensive for me at the moment and someone mentioned about their Open Door Program they offer. Your yearly membership fee is based on your income! Jackpot! I paid $52 dollars for the entire year! I started yesterday and I feel great already! They have the same machine that I used at Gold's Gym and lost nearly 100 lbs. I am overly confident that this is my ticket to success. My children are also able to join me at the gym, so we can go in and play in the gym, swim, or they can participate in several of the youth programs offered. I am really excited about this change in our lives!
I can't say that I still don't struggle with my eating disorder. It's an every day struggle, although it's getting easier to maintain. This is mostly because exercising results in me being more emotionally stable. Emotional stability is a key in keeping the bad eating habits under control. That and I know how hard I'm working and I don't want to ruin it for enjoy a cheeseburger for a few minutes.
The biggest issue that I'm dealing with right now is trying to balance everything in my life effectively. Can it even be done? I'm working full time, doing a lot of my school work at work, trying to find time to help Brianna and Alex learn essential things, spending time with friends and family, and dealing with any other problems in my life. It's all very overwhelming, but it gives me less time to think about things. When I have time to think, that's just when problems occur.
Overall, I am extremely happy right now. I'm not happy with my position in life, but I realize that I just have to be patient. I am making huge strides in the right direction and that's the important thing!
